i knew it.

a feeling of foreboding has been hovering above me for the past couple of days...and yesterday, it finally came down on me.

yes...things have been going wrong for the lot of us.

what i find almost amusing and utterly nonsensical at the same time was how i am expected to fulfill someone else's expectations on my birthday.

isn't someone's birthday meant to be her day? doesn't it mean she could do whatever she wanted on that day? or not to?

i found myself using the "huge wedding banquet" analogy to jiahao yesterday.

why does the couple spend the entire day rushing around, pleasing others just because their parents want to create a good impression, when the day was meant to be theirs? after all, it's THEIR day, isn't it? and by the end of the day, they get so wiped out that they probably can't even stay up to reflect on the day's happenings. whatever happened to the most romantic and special day of a couple's lives?

similarly, whatever happened to me not wanting to celebrate my birthday without getting ragged on for not wanting to?

why do i have to listen to your grouses, reminding me of how me not wanting to celebrate MY DAY pisses you off.

so really...who should be the one who's pissed?