as i pulled out my laptop and flipped the screen open, i started tearing.

i'm now being drowned by the tsunami of mixed emotions.

i guess this is what happens after you've had one helluva day...to me, at least.

after a slow morning being accompanied by a running nose, i met up with angus and claire to go watch a juggling act at suntec city. angus ended up being part of the show as well...it was hilarious. then he treated me to WILD STRAWBERRY ice cream at gelare...it's absolutely fantastic! it's cool how claire and i can get along so well...very fun to be walking around with her and her dad...

went to the esplanade library screening room to watch the pink panther...am glad they liked it! barbara (angus' wife) and mark and sonya joined us slightly later. sonya's such a cool kid...the sstt simply loved her eyes. such soulful peekers she has. anyways...we headed down to the waterfront to have some tiramisu angus and claire got...it was understated nice. none of that "happy birthday to serene" thing...

sent elm to phs for her volleyball match, then headed to junction 8 for a movie. i finally managed to have sushi...haha...plus nachos with cheese...oh glorious cheese... movie sucked major, but the company was so good it made the movie that much more tolerable. imagine sitting through a horror flick, laughing your ass off like it's a mr bean movie.

popped back in on elm...but she seemed too preoccupied (it couldn't have just been fatigue) to acknowledge...and that triggered many thoughts on its own...but i shall not delve into that tonight.

i came home, took a shower...and pulled out the benQ.

so tell me...why the hell would i be shedding tears after such a perfect day?

i'm crying...

because i saw elmo in the state she's in...

because cookie's trying hard...

because grover's such a sweetie...

because the three came down to the esplanade library at my request...

because claire and angus sneaked up on me with a birthday cake...

because mark showed me how tender a father could be with his daughter...

because sonya made me believe in absolute trust and innocence...

because jiahao held my hand through the movie...

i'm crying for everything that happened today.

i'm crying because i cannot handle the love they are showering on me.

and tomorrow, i will cry for what's to happen.