INCOMPETENCE

i have been made to compromise on the very things i've held as my expertise.

this happens because i simply cannot arm-twist students into being responsible and to doing what i think would get us that A-grade.

i am absolutely appalled by how inconsistent and shoddy some people can be.

and what's even worse is how these people seem to think that they are "good enough".

i hate settling for less. seriously.

i pride myself on being good at what i do.

and i know what i do well.

so when people get sloppy at things and do not meet deadlines, i blow my top.

i could be outright bitchy in the office, because everyone would get that it was more about the issue than it was about them.

but i can't seem to be too bitchy in school, because some of the people i work with will not appreciate that i just want us all to do well.

sigh.

i was put into the school mainly because of my work and life experiences.

it sure seems like these very experiences could lead to my undoing.

i refuse to be deemed incompetent because the people i work with are.

but i also refuse to be deemed the only competent one in a team because we are a team.

i hate cookie-cutter everything.

why are people afraid to be different?

HAPPY ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY!

dear snuffy hubby,

Con los ojos cerrados
Amandonos
Volando en un beso
Viviendo de este amor que es tan puro ideal
De este amor que se puede tocar

Con los ojos cerrados
Enamorados
Sonando despiertos
sin miedo
A que nadie nos pueda separar
A jurar que lo nuestro es eterno amor
Amor

(with a little help from Josee's latest email =P)

and it's been a year since we first kissed on 28 October 2006 - the beginning of a helluva ride.

getting married has been the most unexpected event for the both of us.

but i realize how the proposal and wedding reflects how much of an influence we've had on each other.

we were both schedule-freaks, always wanting to plan things in advance to keep them from screwing up.

but we're like two dialectics, which came together to create something new - spontaneity, which was never quite a part of our personalities in that sense.

in spite of the obvious chemistry we shared from the start, i wasn't quite sure then if we could fit intellectually.

i always saw myself as a brooder and a bloody cynic while you were this bright-eyed, optimistic soul.

of course, we both rubbed off on each other and i became much less of a prick and you became more self-aware...of sorts. =P

i love how we are able to engage in a variety of discussions, ranging from what kinda dog we'd like to have, to the morality of heinrich himmler.

i love how you try to keep my spirits up when i get upset at times about feeling like a fish out of water, now that i'm back at school.

i get really sad when you're sick.

and then i get sick.

ah well.

i'll always remember your attempt at spanish when you came to the airport for me after my work trip to China.

Te amo y no puedo vivir sin ti. =)

HUBBY AND ME BACK AT SALSA!

thanks to panda for snapping this picture of us at the Singapore International Salsa Festival over the weekend!

man i need to build up on my stamina. =P

Thanks Josee =)

in friends

today's the day off from school.

but with plenty of readings and project work to catch up on, wednesdays aren't really breaks for me.

especially when i'm feeling wheezy and have a blocked/sometimes running nose.

i started off my day with the usual routine of checking for emails and listened to the tune that Josee passed on to some of us.

it clearly main my morning as i tried ways and means to embed the audio onto my blog to share it with everyone else.

it has such a wonderful melody. =)

a fantastic example of a bachata song i would like to share with my classmates who were asking me about the dance.