When I Fall In Love

how do you know when you're in love?

do you get extremely intense feelings or fiery flames of passion?

or do you just feel calm and at peace with yourself?

either way, i don't suppose i have ever been in love.

but if love were defined by such feelings, i wonder if i have the capacity to experience pure and intense love.

my invisi-shield is still apparant.

and no matter how much i've changed, i've yet to morph outta that independence mode. but given my plans for the near to distant future, the shield should come in handy.

since my school days, acquaintances and friends alike have been telling me to "let others take care" of me.

how could i?

sure...my physical and material needs are aided by my family, but emotionally, no one's even come close to understanding.

the person who came closest to breaking through that shield was cole. yes...the "legendary coleman", as jas puts it.

i believe we're still soulmates and we'd still be able to complete each other's sentences...but we live in different planes now. he needs to find his way, and i need to find mine.

i'm en route.

things are finally turning around.

i love you all...

and if you love me, you will let me go.