the american idol showcase was fine.

i had hoped for it to be on a much larger stage with screens flanking it, but it's all right.

one of the idols impressed the hell outta me because she's improved so much since the last season of american idol.

jasmine trias has become a fantastic performer. she'd totally sucked during the competition, but she's become a polished act.

and i respect her because she's obviously worked hard to get where is now.

that's how i'm gonna learn. push myself to perform as much as i can till i make progress.

by perform, i mean...sing.

there're songs i so love but never had the guts to sing because i'm so used to doing ballads.

from today, i'm stepping outta the box. for reals. which reminds me...

this song's touched me from the first time i heard it on sister act 2.

i remember wanting to sing it...perform it, but never got a chance to.

i heard it last night at the showcase. and i was brought back in time.

Why should I feel discouraged
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart fell lonely
And long for heaven and home

When Jesus is my portion
A constant friend is he
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me

I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow

And I know he watches
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
I know he watches
I know he watches me

- His Eye Is On The Sparrow, Lauryn Hill

i sing, because i'm happy.

and i sing, because i'm free.