What's In A Name?

i have a pretty cool chinese name - shiyin.

let me explain what it means...

shi - poem

yin - music

you'd think that with a name like this, people would remember me.

trouble is: most people don't even know my chinese name.

it wasn't till i started doing the chinese service for phonecast that i managed to get the name out there.

even if i don't say anything, whenever people pick up my name card (like today), they'd naturally comment on my unique and/or musical name.

i love my name. but i didn't always like it.

from the day i knew what my name meant till i was about 18 or so, i thought my name didn't reflect my personality. i suppose neither did my english one.

then, a couple of years later, as i mellowed down, i realized that i sorta grew into my name. though i'm still not so sure about being "poetic".

i totally agree that i'm gifted in music. i have never been formally trained, but i pick up instruments pretty quickly. it's helped in my dancing and singing as well. i never had a problem with beats.

the person who commented on my name this morning is the national rover commissioner and an extremely nice and humble doctor. he had rushed down from the hospital for the baden powell award ceremony. he's nice, and i hope to see more of him in future events. (i know what you're thinking...he's not my kinda guy.)

so i hosted the baden powell awards and frank cooper sands awards today.

i kinda felt like a debutant at a ball.

as people streamed into the hall, i felt like i was being judged by all of them. their eyes scrutinized me from head to toe.

i knew what they were all thinking.

"who's this girl? we haven't seen her before. is she any good? why couldn't they just stick to the old MC?"

those vibes just stuck out. and i'm not being overly-sensitive.

the event went smoothly, and the people were converted. the VIPs were impressed and the attendees can probably recognize me by my smile anywhere now =)

i guess it's just me to want to prove people wrong...or am i simply fulfilling my star profile?

perhaps it's the latter.

i still remember writing that i'm the "reluctant star".

it's like...i may not be comfortable with being in the limelight, but because it comes naturally to me, i am able to handle it.

am i really destined to be a star?

if i am, then what kinda star would i be?