i guess what i really meant in my previous entry is this:

it's simple to blame everyone else in the world for what you can't do.

but now that you can do those things, it'll take courage to finally accept that it's happening.

i'm scared shitless...and kinda lost, even though i know this is what i wanted for eight long years.

but i'm gonna "just nike it".

"Courage is not the absence of fear. It is conquering your fear."

- Rudy Guliani