man...am i tired or what?

check out the time on this one...and i still haven't turned in. guess i've passed the hour.

so before i go make the futile attempt to get some shut-eye, a little update.

BREAKING NEWS!

my dad's term at my primary school's school advisory committee is almost up, and he's handing the position down to me. according to him, so are the other members...haha...so this makes me a hereditary peer? geez...honorary treasurer. dang. now i gotta do all those obligatory school visits, dinners, sports days and such...but hey, should be fun eh?

and now, on to other news...

once people found out i decided not to head for singapore idol after all, many tried to change my mind. i received so many smses, if not phonecalls, egging me on to "go for it". they think it's "such a waste" if i don't even try.

i truly appreciate their faith in me.

frankly, that's all i need. their faith. nothing else really matters...then again, would i be letting them down by not going?

mingli said "no matter what, promise me you'll give it a shot okay?"

and i'm like...well, i don't really remember how i responded.

even someone like johann, who's been outta my life for eons, smsed me to tell me to go for the auditions. imagine...this guy whom i've been avoiding forever...sigh.

thanks for everything guys. i feel extremely privileged to have sung for you.

i had a light bulb moment today, and i was ecstatic for a while...

everything i've tried to dig out to inspire me...watching the boys' footdrill training, sitting in on lessons...i found absolutely nothing, then.

today, whie standing in the crowded NEL train with jim brickman's piano solo playing in my ears...

IT HIT ME.

it was all there! everything i was trying so hard to look out for...it was right under my nose and i failed to see it! i was too busy waiting for something "special" to happen that i overlooked the fact that THEY are that something special.

my boys are special. and that's why i'm still there.

that's it! that's my story!

my entire search for inspiration within inspiration.

i'm glad it hit me now. i kinda need it.