last night was da bomb...but it also reminded me how much i love doing outdoor events.

i may not be 'lil miss sunshine, but hey, i make a pretty good host for fun event under the sun!

corporate, indoor stuff just ain't my thing, but apparently, i didn't do too badly either.

so anyways...mom barged into my room earlier to tell me that i could download the singapore idol contest form from the mediacorp website. man...i really don't know if i wanna do this. when i asked jas (DP) what he thought about singapore idol, he pushed me to enter too...saying that i've got everything to gain...

i'd love to sing for people. but crowds and such bitchy competition ain't my thing again. i'd hate to queue up for shit like this...sigh. why do i have to try so hard even to share something i love?

my voice has always been personal to me. it's taken me a lot to share it. and the one time i shared it with a varied crowd from over 22 countries, many came up to tell me that i had a gift...and that it would bring joy to a lot of people. that was what made me overcome my feeling of inadequacy.

i love to sing.

and i want to share it someday.

help me make my dream come true.

be my inspiration.