mark's right. angus' right.

i have so much going for me. if i were to do up a list of the things and people i had in my life right now, i'd probably amaze even myself.

no matter how much pain i've subjected myself to these past months, things have only been going uphill for me...since i left SIA, that is.

so let's see what i've been up to since i left the airline...

1) i met mark and angus. 'nuff said...haha.

2) i got roped into the scout unit as an assistant scout leader.

my scouting life is something that puzzles a lotta pple. obviously, pple ask why i'd be with the scouts and not the guides, if i used to be a guide, and what i did in the group. frankly, i have no idea what i'm doing in the group. i have no specific skills to contribute and so, can't teach the boys anything for them to attain their standards. only thing i may be doing there is to soften the testosterone feel of the whole group. it's true that scouting may be a boy's game...but time's are a'changin' and i'd like to believe my presence is doing something for them.

i've seen the way raymond writes me off when i try to contribute to a discussion on scouting matters. he doesn't do it verbally, but you can tell from his body language that he just doesn't care what i think. i believe it to be so for the other people around. so yes...it was hard in the beginning, but once i stopped caring about what the other leaders thought, i started having a lot more fun.

the boys are starting to embrace me for who i am. i'm still too radical for the other leaders' liking, but i hope in time, they'll learn to trust me and my methods.

the best thing that came outta all this scouting stuff? i've learnt how to feel...and oh, the birth of the sstt. now that was coolness.

3) i became a big sis to quite a few.

the first time elmo called me "jie jie", it kinda stunned me for a bit. as soon as it set in though, i gotta admit it felt really good...

i've sorta started a hugging trend. to quote from cookie's blog:

"A hug can convey so much between two persons . It can mean so much to another person and it is actually a physical way of saying "I'm here for you" or "I share your happiness/sorrow with you" . Frankly , it kinda works out well with people with the "big brother" mentality just like me.

This is just one of the many things I've learnt from Oscar . And I know she's got a hell lot more to teach . Slowly , but surely , the SSTT will go a long way with her around."

my posse gives warm hugs. it was heaven the first time i hugged grover. he'd fallen asleep with his head on my shoulder for most of the time we sat at the back of the van. as we got off (he's my next-block-neighbor), he gave me one of the warmest hugs i've ever gotten. of course, cookie, elmo, ernie and big bird give warm hugs too...haha...but grover...man, grover's our baby. and for our baby to hug back...that's something.

i'm glad we've got no walls between us.

4) i'm singapore's first phonecaster!

monday's the big day! how the hell we zipped through the first two months of the year i don't know, but i'm so excited about monday! am keeping my fingers crossed that everything'll go smoothly till the day arrives.

5) i'm in a lion dance group.

haha...never saw that coming, did you? i've learnt to play the cymbals...elmo and i learnt it together with the new scouts. grover was the one playing the drum. by the way, that's how everything started with grover... it all started with this simple message:

"just a note to say that you've got an awesome
smile.

totally love it.

say hi to me the next time you see me okay?
don't just walk on by..."

remember this sweetie? am proud to be your sis.

incidentally, the sstt could form a mini lion dance troupe...haha...grover on the drum, elmo and i on the cymbals, ernie and cookie with the lion and big bird on the "gong" (?!).

it's s'wonderful...s'marvellous...

so many things! i shouldn't have time to even feel this way....

have i ever told you i love my life?

just a few random thoughts for the day.

pure drivel.