JOURNEY

i'm crying as i'm typing this.

starting today, i'll be embarking on yet another phase of this adventure i call MY LIFE.

if you thought i was strong enough and independent before, you ain't seen nothin' yet.

for the past decade, i've been dedicating my time to people and their problems.

i've been trying to help them get through their rough patches in life.

and whenever people ask me why i am so willing to help others, yet so reluctant to receive help myself, i answer with this:

"because helping others is my salvation. i learn from helping others get through their problems."

over the past couple of years, i've become quite jaded by how selfish people have become.

obviously, there are times when i am selfish.

of late though, i find myself sacrificing my physical and mental health to please people; people who are selfish enough to point their fingers at me without knowing the basis of those allegations.

i have decided that, for the good of my mental health, i shall take a break from these people.

i have decided to be selfish for once...because i need to nurse my sanity, and make sure it doesn't take anymore battering.

and that's why i need time...

away from my family, my boys, my home.

realize that i still call the place i live MY HOME.

and that's proof that i'm not distancing myself.

i just desperately need time AWAY.

please let me indulge in my selfishness for this once.

please.