i shouldn't require you to reassure me.

i shouldn't wonder why you love me.

i shouldn't bother you with my rambling.

i shouldn't feel this way.

i shouldn't.

because then, it will never happen.

because i will not allow it to happen.

what a screw-up i am.

what a bloody screw-up.

i can't even see something good even if it comes and farts at me in the face.