i believe it's the dilemma that got me all distracted during salsa tonight.

i was hell bent on boycotting the audition...for some reason though, all signs seem to be pointing me in that direction.

so if it's bothering me so, i should just bite the bullet and go for it.

if not to win it, just to get this shitty feeling over and done with and rid myself of all the "what if"s.

sigh...why haven't i been hit by the usual wave of post-dancing euphoria?

i'm tired.