N.E.R.D

this just dawned on me today, and i readily admitted this to my mom...

I LIKE NERDS.

i mean...i like cute nerds.

seems to me like the only guys i ever look at are guys in glasses with great smiles.

guys who possess that quiet confidence.

guys who are extremely knowledgeable, but won't loudly proclaim so.

hmm...odd, isn't it?

so anyways...i woke up late and had a whole loada sarcasm directed at me as i joined the team at lunch, before heading back to school to do some clean-up.

sigh...i'm sick, and tired.

i shouldn't be "tired", considering how much less physical work i've done for the big bash last night.

but i just am.

and i can't bring myself to tell the guys that i am, indeed, tired.

so i just went on...sweeping and mopping the school hall grounds before finally having to leave for dinner with my relatives.

i felt guilty leaving them.

and i feel even more guilty telling myself to rest some tomorrow, while the rest will still be working hard in school.

we all worked our butts off for this golden jubilee.

instead of resting these hols, we were in school, decorating the school hall, talking to the press...each of us doing our own thang...but all directed towards last night.

i wish i had rest. but more importantly, i wish i could rest together with my guys.

you get what i mean.

i'm getting so much closer to the elders with each passing week.

okay...i'm rambling now.

tired.

sick.