Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

i suppose this is as close to a break-up as i'd get for now.

i still feel a nagging ache somewhere in my heart.

my mind keeps replaying this afternoon's scene.

i don't suppose he realized how painful it was for me to say those words...and hold the tears in.

now that he isn't looking, and neither is anyone else, i'm free to cry.

it wasn't easy, but it HAD to be done.

i feel shut out.

the moment i said those words, it was like...he just shut me out.

and it hurts to feel that way.

and this is just 10 months before.

how would it be when the time comes?

would i lose everyone else as well?