fuck it.

i'm feeling so angry and miserable now.

yes...it's because of that stupid flu bug.

and i simply can't miss out on tomorrow's sentosa trip because if i don't go, many, many fingers will be pointed at me.

i can just hear the comments..."first, she cancels the race. now she's not here. how irresponsible can she get?"

you know...the only way people could get a whiff of how much shit i'm going through is if i pass out right before their eyes.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.

why do i keep falling sick at the wrong time?

how much worse can things get?

seriously, do i even have a choice?