today was amazing!

well actually, it went on pretty much like any other day...but hell...i feel good!

between coming home from SIASR in the later afternoon and going for the singapore computer systems press conference, i managed to squeeze in 20 laps at the pool! man i feel fantastic...and the best thing is: i think my stamina's on its way back. slow and steady does it...;) let's see if i can repeat this feat tomorrow...highly unlikely, but you never know...

the press conference reminded me of my days at newsradio, 'cept that, those days i was a tad bit younger and lacked the confidence that i think i have now. like i kept telling everyone earlier, it's a tiring day, but i've so lovin' it. i remember when i was still in school, i'd often be in awe of the big shots i'd have to interview...purely because they were CEOs of SME 500 companies and all. today, i could even speak and joke with them prior to the press conference. one thing about me that they probably saw as well...that i was, under all that professional shit, a really cheeky girl. i say that because i realize my grin gives me away. it was especially evident when eng hai told the chief financial officer that i am a "very talented girl". i think i couldn't have blushed more because i was already red from the afternoon's swim! the CEO made me laugh...haha...well, the way he looked made me laugh, rather. he had a bald patch on his head that was really shiney...and damn it, was it distracting...

bar by bar, she bends them and sneaks out...

it's odd...but i do feel like i'm just beginning to make an impact. this isn't an ego trip, and i don't need big people to get me anywhere. i will get to where i'm meant to be, just by being me... these people see something i don't, but i reckon it's something special...:)

so from today on, i'm just gonna grin my silly grin, laugh my goofy laugh and do everything else that is uniquely serene. i'm real...get that.

and oh...something else that i was thinking about on the train ride home today... again, i sat at the head of the train so i could lean against the pyrex panel for support and stare out into the tunnel. today, i found myself concentrating on the partitions in the tunnel rather than the music that was pounding my ears. the journey home seemed especially draggy then. then i realized...those days when i just shut my eyes and focussed on the music, i got home in a jiff. so that got me thinkin'...most times, we lament about our "humdrum" lives and how long our days seem to pass by. today got me thinking that perhaps those days, we feel totally off because we focus on the wrong things. so lean back, close your eyes, let the music take you...and let passion take over for a bit. you'll be surprised at how clear things'll seem after that.

because i'm worth it.