last night was a few saturdays back revisited.

it seemed like we were back at square one...when he was just another kid i got to know and i was someone trying to get to him...unsuccessfully.

last night was...disappointing.

there really is no other word to describe it.

after all we've been through together, you'd think we would've scrapped some layers off each other's walls.

alas, it was all a farce.

how stupid was i to believe he would lay down his pride for me...

i should've expected his rejection before i even offered...then i wouldn't have asked and gotten my heart trampled on in the process.

i should've known...because i wouldn't have laid down my pride for him as well.

i'm a fucking hypocrite.

i must've been really upset to have sworn so much last night as well.

i still feel stupid.