CHANGE OF HEART

i was quite taken by this song by olivia newton john when i first heard it many years back.

i had found it pretty unusual for a woman to sing about having a change of heart and telling her partner she's sorry.

anyways, my babies performed really well saturday night!

i was like a proud mother hen parading them and winking at them from the judges table.

my voice was another story though.

i had totally lost if after the pageant, thankfully after the workshop me and jon had to give.

saturday morning mom and i headed out for a bit before i had to run to swissotel for the pageant rehearsals.

we were talking about babies and she said my dad would be so excited to have a grandchild.

my dad's really cute.

he's the first guy my mom knows who isn't afraid of newborns and of breaking their necks.

she said when i was born, my dad didn't hesitate to carry me at all, even though i was premature and weighed only 4 pounds.

he's just extremely good with kids.

speaking of which, i haven't seen that baby i had in my arms just about 3 weeks back for a long while.

mom says he's gotten a little bigger and looks really cute.

poor thing still doesn't have a name yet.

finally went to the doc's last night.

mom told me when she told dad that we've broken up again, he said he was hoping we'd make things work.

quite sad really.

he isn't going to give up.

says he wants to prove to me that he can love me for me and love me the right way.

sigh.

i don't want anyone to prove anything to me.

i just want to mesh seamlessly with someone else.

there shouldn't be any sorta "proving" involved. =(

on that note, i shall end my short rambling for tonight.

and pay my tribute to steve irwin - the crocodile hunter.

i've watched his crocodile hunter series for as long as i can remember.

loved him, his wife and his kids.

it's just sad to know he's gone, leaving behind his wife and two young children.

good night steve.