GET OUT

of course my case is of a different context from jojo's hit single.

but my message is the same.

seeing how he keeps thinking i'm holding grudges against him and that i'm miserable because of our bad relationship...it's both frustrating and amusing.

more amusing because i marvel at how some people like to believe the world revolves around them.

if i had wallowed in self-pity, i wouldn't have done half the things i did in the past month.

perhaps...seeing that i hadn't regretted everything i did in the relationship, i could let it go smoothly.

for everything that he insisted i did wrong, i did not seek forgiveness...and i didn't need it, because i knew i did no wrong.

the only forgiveness i sought was for wasting his time.

but after it all, i just couldn't be bothered.

COULDN'T BE BOTHERED with the messages of accusations and apologies laden with "but you..."s.

so why does he keep bugging me to be friends with him now?

from my perspective, there's only one reason.

he wants to be able to feel better about me leaving him.

and i'm wondering..."why would i want to make him feel better about himself?"

of course, that's a rhetorical question.

and he has conveniently forgotten the word "hypocrite" he used on me, and said i chose to pick on those words.

if he wants friendship, or forgiveness, he's not going to get it.

in the words of a WWII survivor on the japanese general who created chaos in singapore...

"it is easy to forgive, but not easy to forget."

i don't hate him.

i really just can't be bothered.

but he's pissed me off, and he's not getting what he wants.

NO REPRIEVE FOR YOU WHO SAID NO.

he had said no to my offer of friendship.

he'd better live with his decision.