YOU DON'T KNOW ME

you gave your hand to me
and then you say hello
and i can hardly speak
my heart is beating so

and anyone can tell
you think you know me well
but you don't know me.

no you don't know the one
who dreams of you at night
longs to kiss your lips
longs to hold you tight

oh i'm just a friend
that's all i've ever been
cuz you don't know me.

cry girl...just cry it all out.

it's all right to fall.

just dust your knees and keep walking.

go on.

the moment mouldy looked at me from across the room and gave me that smile, i had just wanted to walk out.

he seemed to know exactly what was going through my mind at that moment.

i suppose panda probably picked up on it, but he couldn't quite put his finger to it.

well now that the dust has sorta settled, i can begin telling our story.

crushes never amount to anything...at least in my case, they don't.

i hardly get crushes.

so when a girl friend and i had a crush on this guy, we just giggled it off.

the crush gradually died down.

but of course, as fairytales go...the fella responded.

cut to the modern fairytale.

the relationship was wrought with trials and tribulations.

in the end, i'd say we just run along different wavelengths.

from then till now, i've always stood by my "don't look for a distraction, face the problem" talk.

turns out that i WAS being distracted...by the fact that i had my heart hell set on keeping my space.

i simply locked myself when i encountered him or spoke to him.

and today, the distraction failed to distract.

so here i am, getting over the heartbreak that was caused over a month back.

and that's what i mean by...alone.

me, sitting by the sink, sobbing alone.

me, picking up the pieces, alone.

let me do it alone.