SORRY, I

for most of today, my brain was in my tummy.

to go or not to go.

i felt so numb i seriously couldn't feel anything.

both in my gut and emotionally.

i just lay there. and decided whether to go, or not.

so there i was, floating about until one of my boys decided to ask me when i was going back to ycsog.

"one year ago, you said you needed to take a one year break. so when are you coming back?"

so now, i'm guilt-tripped into going for lion dance with my boys over the chinese new year period and attending the group reunion dinner.

this time last year, i was certain i'd be back within a year.

though with the studio, work, the SHINE committee and all that jazz, i'm not sure if i can fully immerse myself into scouting activities again.

i know i'd be hosting the president's scout award this year at the istana though.

if i dedicate all my time to the above, social dancing would become a thing of the past in no time...and that, i cannot allow to happen.

the social life might even become non-existent.

hmm.

but i miss my boys.

sigh...what's a busy girl to do?