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something's gotta give.

maybe i'm that something.

but my heart just won't let me, because i've been doing this my entire life.

why can't i just be selfish for once...

...just that once in my life when i can take care of myself, and look after my own well-being?

why do i have to give?

I'M SUCH A WRECK NOW.

maybe taking up the studio isn't such a good idea after all.

i had hoped we'd grow stronger through it, but it doesn't seem to be happening.

the past two weeks have been a mess.

i had kept mum about being horribly stressed out, and hearing other people out.

i thought perhaps they had just wanted to unload their stress verbally, so it might make them feel better.

i didn't want to speak because i had no intention of comparing stress loads.

but it turned out i was their outlet...and for me...

i had no outlet.

when once, dance was my solace and the dance studio my blessing, it is now a burden...weighing on friendship and professionalism.

i have always taken pride in my professionalism. people who know me know that.

so when daphne asked if there was one thing i had to choose - between studio and friendship...

i chose the latter.

i chose the latter.

i chose the latter.

i'm in so much pain.

my heart is literally twisted into knots.

HELP ME.

PLEASE.