WALKING AWAY

it's been a while since i've walked down the strip alone.

and it was liberating.

i miss my long walks alone and singing to myself.

(what a perfect morning to be at home and blogging, with dad's favorite music playing in the background. *yes it's true, i'm so happy to be stuck with you*)

i remember the time when i walked down the very same road (and even further) regularly, not considering anything in particular but just letting my emotions run.

at that point in my life, i was so used to pushing people away that rejecting became a reflex.

it turned some off...my flippant attitude...but i remember it to be the happiest days of my young life.

because no one could touch me. and get away with it.

some say it's an invisi-shield.

perhaps i have an innate need to protect myself against the world after so many disappointments (again, subject to me only).

pushing people away just seems so easy.

after all, it's reflex.

even now.