LEAVE

there're things you just leave aside for a while, just so you wouldn't have to face it while you're already going through a hard time.

physical things.

like the two tickets to "lady in the water", still intact, that fell out of a bag i was rushing to clear to use this morning.

and the maps of cameron highlands.

but because i was in a hurry, all those fell behind the haste.

now that i'm back in my room and dumping the two tickets, i can't help the pang of sadness at the missed movie, what came after that, and those little things we got in cameron.

now husky and the big red pig that i gave him, and he threw back at me, have resided on my bed all this while.

i look at them as part of the toy family and play with them like how i do with the rest of my stuffed animals.

that said, i don't miss his presence or want him.

i just don't want any surprises jumping out of luggages or bags.