well...i didn't write much on paris cuz i felt sick after writing too much on the email.

i can't figure men out. haha...yeah, i know...they probably aren't as hard to figure out as women, but hell...

does it mean anything if he asks you out? what if it doesn't feel like a date? is it still a date then? i don't wanna read too much into anything cuz i'm a total mess at reading the species from mars. and all thanks to DP for making me aware of that...haha. Of course, I'm truly happy that he's found someone he loves wholeheartedly. my girl friends, too, think that I'm totally horrendous in the male department. then again, i've always thought of myself as "half male-half female" brained.

i hate being totally clueless at things like these. then again, i can't be sure of everything, can i? guys and i...we just click like buddies...that's all. or at least that's what i think. and i can't believe how easily i can just shut off emotions. man...like what i did to keith, coleman and jo. geez...that's really scary huh? even my mom says i'm cold-hearted. guess i pride myself in that department. not too much i can pride myself on these days anyways.

and oh, have i told you that i ain't good with men?