HE HAD ME, HE JUST DIDN'T KNOW IT.

Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream, she said
The one that makes me laugh, she said
And threw her arms around my neck

Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I’ll run away with you
I’ll run away with you

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow

Why are you so far away? she said
Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you
That I’m in love with you

- just like heaven, katie melua.

do i love him?

do i?

no less than ten close friends have told me something to this extent thus far...

"when you're happy, you're really happy. when you're sad, you're really sad. i don't know how, but you seem to make the world feel happy and sad together with you.

"serene, people want you to be happy because they know you're a nice person, and that you DESERVE to be happy."

i can't see why people would think i deserve to be happy.

everyone deserves to be.

on the flip side, desiree pointed out one other person who has that "ability" to make people feel with him: ADOLF HITLER.

he's such a naughty example but i get what she means.

i hope i never have to go down his route.

if i truly have the power to subconsciously make people feel with me, then i want them to feel happy with me.

in that aspect, i know what i should do.

because although i'm not made to feel responsible to these people, they are the ones waiting by the wings of the court, cheering me on.

and in my opinion, for that, all of them DESERVE to be happy.