i realize i've become a lot more passive these days.

perhaps age is catching up with me.

in the past, i'd push for things to happen. but now, if the guys don't wanna do it, i'll just give a "whatever" and leave. no point in pushing it.

but hey...that "whatever" usually does the trick. ;)

i wish people would stop telling me how busy they are and verbally lining up their chores for the week. and i wish they'd stop implying how i can never find time in my "busy" schedule to meet up with them.

because unlike them, i need to be alone at times. i already hardly have time for myself. i need to breathe. i need some space in my own little corner. i just wanna be able to lie back, shut my eyes and breathe easy.

starting next week, things will get a lot more hectic, and i don't suppose i'll get time to myself until two weeks later, when i get on the cruise ship with the family. i say i'll get time to myself because they'll all be at the casino and i'll be hanging in the room...

if you've kept up with my recent blogs, you'd know how busy i'd be and why. and i ain't gonna spell out everything that i'll be doing till the time is through.

but i'll be so busy that my aunt and cousins coming over from LA won't be able to see me that often during their time here. and get this: they're staying at my place.

how pathetic is that?

sigh...will write more in a bit...since people seem to find shorter blogs more digestible...;)